mommy blues

Mom, you used to tell me

When I was born my eyes were blue

It’s my limbal ring that’s mama blue,

You only caught it once, but it’s always been blue.

My eyes were always brown traced with navy blue.

You saw it once through the reflection of a ray of light

When you laid your first eyes on me with new glasses and sight

It’s still the same blue mom,

But you can only see it blue

If you saw them with light shining through

Mom, I learned a deep secret of life and I would whisper to you

Mom, you too can learn to see beauty everywhere around you.

You talk about those eyes so often.

You can’t help but see that it’s also beautiful.

You saw them blue from the love of your light radiating through

My eyes were blue in your light because your heart was full

I know you caught a glimpse of your own reflection too

You felt so beautiful inside and your heart was so full

That is the secret and the gift of life that I want to give you

When your heart is full, you would open new eyes

You’d see all the signs and clues

Mom, the secret is to have a full heart

Mom, the skies aren’t always black and blue

If you see sunrise at sunrise or a sunset after noon

You’d see what I mean

would you know how it feels

Mom, when you open your eyes at five and look outside

Mom, it doesn’t matter if it’s day or night

You would capture magnificent shades of yellow-orange light

Sometimes conspicuous streaks of red and even bright dark magenta

Mom, you’re going to open new eyes

Mom come play with me outside

There’s so much more than just shades of hues in sight

Mama if you listen long enough

Mama, the birds in the trees will sing a song for you

Could you listen to my favorite song

Mom, if you raise your head to look at the sky

Mom, you would also see something magical between them

Because that’s where the secret double rainbow lies,

That’s where your pot of gold will begin to begin

Mom please wipe your tears and you can see it too

Mom, the rain will stop for you

You just gotta make sure your heart is full

But mom, I have to go now

I’ve been quietly picking my gold nuggets

Once I felt like my heart had a gaping hole

For everything they told me

Mom, I’m old

My wasted heart learned and saw

Amid the scorching sun and freezing cold

Mama no one can tell me now

How should I prune and maintain

All the wonderful seeds I’ve sown

Come take a look at my garden mama,

You’d see all the weeds overgrown

Now there are only scented blooming flowers

Come take a look at them mom

You would see that they are still brown,

Surrounded with a dark ring of navy blue

Mom, I’ve figured out how

So please dry your eyes now

I don’t blame you when your heart isn’t full

But mom, I need to go home now.

I have my chance to collect my gold

There wait my love to unravel and behold

Has been waiting unconditionally,

I’ve finally learned to meet my soul

I finally learned the hard way,

That my heart has always been complete

Mom, I hope one day you see it too

Mom you can do that once your heart is full

When your heart is truly complete,

The world would be yours to hold

You can find all the rich,

You can start mining the gold.

But mama I haven’t seen your heart full since that day

I’d still hear you say,

I had them blue

Mom, it’s your heart that isn’t full

Mom, my eyes are still blue

I looked in the mirror today

They are still the same pair of eyes.

Mom, don’t cry when you don’t see me around

Mom, don’t be afraid when you feel sad

When your heart starts to make your world feel small

Just remember those big blue eyes you once saw

Those blue eyes you remembered will sing you a peaceful lullaby

You can find the secret pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

‘Cause every gold nugget inside hides

All the infinite abundance you can have in sight

Mom, I’m whispering the secret to you again tonight.

Mom, your heart was unconditionally complete that night

Mom, your heart was overflowing

You can see your own reflection

The same way you saw those newborn eyes

You were the one who gave me that final clue.

Mama your heart may still be full

Mom, you can also see it in your own eyes

Mom, my eyes came from you


“Mom, I’ve been silent for a long time,

I was always afraid to say something bad,

So I never learned how to practice and play my song.

No one listened when I used to scream and hide

I know exactly how frightening that fight and silence are.

Completely losing the strength of a voice that was exaggerated.

Mom, somewhere in this world,

I know someone is hurting inside

I can’t keep quiet hiding from view.

I found the words that would start to stop the mourning,

So the world can start learning the words to my song

Of all the mistakes we’ve seen, heard and wronged.

The words of my song will bring hope and light,

I have learned the secret behind writing lyrics late at night.

I could revive you when you think you’ve lost the fight.

They could break covered sticks and stones,

Alone on the waking trail of hardened and broken hearts

We could start mining these cold abandoned holes.

Mom, hearts that heal can come to life to light a spark,

Renew life with a new beat from the warmth of sunlight

If I made the right words to calm the rhythm that went so wrong for me.

But mom, you’ve never heard the lyrics,

Why would you choose the silences of my song

About laughing noises sounds you think don’t belong.

Mom, I hope one day you find relief from yourself,

When you come to see the love that I have learned to give myself

You would hear the words I once tried to rehearse for you.

Mom, I’m going to stop biting my tongue because I’m strong,

My heart will cry for the last time for all the ills

When I start to unravel the past it hurts in my song.

Mom, they are going to learn every word of my melody,

When my eyes are done crying for the last time and I’m gone

The world will memorize the words of my song.

Mom, one day you would like to get out of my old silence,

When you hear the echoes of my melody in the distant sirens

Because I’ve finally learned how to reveal and sing my new song.”

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